sherwoodwhisper

First of all, thank you for reading the journal, I know few people do. You're the type that cares.

Okay, it's been a long time. And to me it just flashed by. I wanted to cry when I was told it's the last day of February tomorrow. Am I that old? Time, not so fast!!! Please! I can't even rest as done!

It's very hard to go back to art. I knew it would be and I knew it's wise to use the 4 month charge to keep drawing, that was the aim after all - to make me get used to drawing every day. But I was so tired, I had no days off for 4 months, I still can't believe I made it. So I let myself rest well and... well, the best I could do all this time is practice to stay in shape for the moment when I'd be able to draw again. When stars align and I have time, enough time and not a bunch of 5 minute shreds.

I need to dedicate a whole day to art to get somewhere. But by the time I sit down and know I can now draw it's 3 AM and I need to sleep to not be a zombie tomorrow and at least have a hope to have some time. Well, today I decided I'd just go ahead and use the night. So I managed to even upload something. Wow. I'll be a zombie tomorrow. Don't shoot me, I behave.

I know many people wait for the comic to go on and for some Patreon art, I have many obligations and I'm very ashamed that I take that long. I try to maintain some balance to not burn out in one single dash and to still be able to keep drawing. It doesn't help much but know that I think about my little Eri and art in general every day, I'm not gone, just fighting through the routine.

Yep, that's it, I guess. Thanks for your understanding and support, guys. I can't express how much I wish I didn't have to work, eat, sleep, do anything useless and time consuming and just spend some time with my family and draw, draw, DRAW. So many ideas, so little time. One day...

Oh, and if it helps - 4 months of every day uploads and 2 months of silence is same as 2 days uploads and 1 day off for half a year. Just... use your imagination, pretend I played the cards right and didn't do anything as stupid as 120 non-stop themes XD

 Sorry. Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry... (c) Mei

I think I better write it down in my journal first. I've been away for almost a month. A month ago I got a strong pain and had to call an ambulance. I only just got back home. Still having stitches on my body. But now it's ok.

I still can't believe I'm home again. It even smells different. Everything feels new. My eyes need time to re-focus to work with my monitor  and to draw. Don't worry guys, I'll try to upload as soon as I can. The worst thing is I was 4 days away from finishing the last set of the comic chapter. I wanted to take a bit longer and upload both last sets. I was this close and... got torn out of everything. I tried to stay optimistic but I really wanted to cry. Cause I knew what it meant. Apart from letting my audience down again.

So... of course, a month with no pencil in my hands... It feels terrible. I need to start over. Again. Practice again. Get my mind back on the track again. It was... a serious shock for me. I can't describe fully what I'm feeling. Of course, it was a... hm... an adventure. Many new people, many challenges like dirty scary hospital doubled toilets with no locks, neighbors snoring or coughing blood, food with no smell, no taste, no nutrition and no purpose, endless drop counters, injections and blood tests that turned my left hand into a big bruise (of course I'd never let them touch my right one, I've been guarding it with my life ) . Worst of all was waiting. Waiting for someone irresponsible to finish my tests somewhere for me to move on. Today. Or tomorrow. Or a week after. Never sure. Yeah, it was tough. And the only thing I could think of is how would I recover my skills and my style. If I didn't have to be anywhere it would be just a vacation. But damn! I had to be HERE! With my little Eri!

Well, my "Fort Boyard" is over. Last Friday I had a surgery, in about a week they will remove my stitches. These guys have cut one part out of me, something I don't know the English name for. Digestive system. Nothing serious, I'll be fine now. I'll never forget this month of my life. There were good things, there were bad things. And now I'm feeling absolutely obligated to get my hand back to normal and get everything finished. And then... if you excuse me more of delays, I'd take a real vacation and relax and maybe play something like Final Fantasy. After the chapter is done. Hopefully this weekend.

I felt like I needed to explain all that right now and not when I upload the sets. I hope you guys haven't forgotten me. I'm glad to be back. Let's rock!

So it's the first day of Fall. Just to change the journal. Cause writing in it more often than once a year is a key to ultimate success.

Oh, and I love Fall. Fresh cool breeze, rain, golden colors... Yup. ^__^

Nope, that's it. Nothing else here.

I should thank all who cheered me with their comments, favs and llamas (sorry, folks, I only figured these out not so long ago, should have sent more back ). I sure hope I do give you some positive emotions and it's always great to have a little feedback to know where to go next. Also big thanks to EQD for actually showing my humble doodles to the world. And since I upload mostly MLP art, huge thanks to the artists of mighty Hasbro who created this wonderful show.

So, have a great vacation and holidays for all who celebrate! ^__^ I don't really, I have to work on X-mas. I was hoping I'd get some support on Patreon to have a relief but... it's voluntary, really. But it might take a while for me to work on the comics so be patient. And sorry about the delays between uploads.

Let's hope the next year will be better, regarding both art and the situation in the world. ^__^