Bluebearry

"Dobson! Dobson! We've got Dobson here! See, nobody cares. Nice hat"

If you don't know, the gummy bear is , the creator of SYAC.

And I guess I'll have a long description for those who do care and who don't mind drama.

It's not a randomly picked character. I had a few ideas about drawing him a long time ago. Where do I even start?.. Several years have passed since I started my DA account. I barely remember what I thought and felt back then. It was a stormy time for me and I found MLP and it was the ray of sun that I needed. I don't even remember how I found the SYAC. Was I looking for art-guides? Maybe I was looking for something about animation and character design. I am a cartoonist after all, I just focus on uploading ponies here. And that comic was actually pretty familiar to me - the situations, the problems of an artist, I knew all that too well. So I was really inspired by it. Really as in... I guess I decided to start this account thanks to it. And I wanted to create comic strips. I think it was that brave example of Andy that inspired me. If he could upload something not as awesome I could too. You gotta agree, it's hard to find courage to upload your art when you compete with... 30k hours professionals. Yes, it is discouraging to be looking through the "top of the month" DA page.

I needed a hero back then, I guess. And I was following Andy. And here comes my ill luck with people named Andy. It hurt. It hurt to see him going far beyond view-boosting with conflict with this blue bear that was made grumpy for the conflict sake. It hurt to see him engage in all sorts of fighting, complaining about harsh responses and yet diving deeper and deeper into it. Even without political topic he could find something to argue hard about. And now it seems he has left DA for good. Because he didn't like it all?! I don't understand this man. But... yeah, I hate conflict. I'd rather be boring and not attract much attention. And at some point I stopped watching him. It was clear there will be no more stories like "A Harsh Lesson" and "Persistence of Vision" that I loved. It was very tough for me, I was kinda looking up to him. I don't have many people I could say I want to be like. And back then it was very important to me.

So... yeah, I have mixed feelings about this bear. Maybe if hadn't find SYAC there would be no Sherwood and no Eri. As I said, I don't remember that time well. It's easy to say I'm fine without any idols right now but in those days it probably meant a lot more to me.

It's fair if I at least mention him. Don't know if I could actually speak to him. I'd probably be too scared to.

Oh and looking through the SYAC comic again I found something curious. I had a feeling that topic was familiar. Andy did it too. And I agreed with most of it. He has a point about many things, I wouldn't be inspired by him if I didn't feel much connection. So now looking back I think I remembered that strip every time I saw disgusting stuff in Google images and then I forgot the strip but I still felt like saying something about it. And when an artist has something to say, he draws. So it does show that even now I still have bits of that old inspiration.

Maybe it would be a good idea to communicate with other artists and grow skills faster, but... I'm a scaredy-cat. Or rather even a scaredy-turtle. Shame, really, I know.

"Time for a game of disappearing bears!" (sorry, I had to say that )

Half-good, half-bad, this bear was a serious impact on me. Not being unique but just because it was him in my heart back then. I owe him. And surely will remember him.

Yes, Eri, you're related to a grumpy blue bear with Indiana Jones hat! It's a small world after all.